The snake who killed the bird, this and that

"Where have you been in the last 14 years?....What have you been up to?." Simple enough questions that seem to look for simple enough answers. The trouble is, where do we get the answers? How do we answer such a very profound question?

I said well I've been around. I've been here and I've been there. I was this and I was that. I've made this and created that But, I also destroyed this and shattered that.
I have bred the most wonderful of birds, the most colorful at that.
people were amazed of my feat
But unbeknownst to them, I also developed a snake whose appetite is most voracious indeed

For it does not consume only the most beautiful but the most precious of my birds in fact
It does not stop eating until it has eaten everything and he's the only one left among the lot
What then do i do to control the snake who consumed and killed?
What can one do with this powerful and unnerving plot?

I seeked for help but answers came not
I looked for escape but the paths were blocked
I fought brave and I fought hard
my sword got chipped, my armor tarnished
Helplessness and confusion set in
My spirit got dampened and so I gave up

It sits there waiting now breeding!



So what have i done really?
Nothing profound
Nothing really interestingly new
I did this and thought of that
and Nothing seemed to work though, when it comes to that

then lately, I met this wonderful thing who asked questions
so many of her questions I could not even pathom
i wanted her to come in but this i first must do
I need to rid the snakes off everything i do
To kill the snakes says she i dont know how to
but why not start making short of about a couple or two?

The last time we counted there were 3385!
I know its a long way and a hard one to bare
But to kill each and everyone of them i have got no minute to spare
So I'll start with you you foul creature
and watch me spit at and laugh when I conquer you
for I know I will have the victory that is most really true!

new beginnings.....

I have always been fickle-minded in almost everything i do. Most of my friends and family jokingly describe me as s being a "jack of all trades but a master of none".. ..this admittedly is very true. I have always thought I was in control and that all of my decisions are good but most often than not the outcome of these decisions would prove me wrong. I don't feel any regrets though knowing I'm still breathing and very much alive. I believe, anything that don't kill you can only make you stronger. I just try to be extra careful nowadays.



Being fickle-minded as I have previously pointed out definitely has chipped a lot off my shoulders over the years. One instance is about a decision I made when I was still a college student. I fell attracted to two particular women in my class. I knew they felt the same way towards me as well ... at least the attraction was mutual but God!, 2 girls? Whew! Anyway... i decided to choose between the two. Needless to say, I chose wrong and i ended up bagging neither of the two.... and offending at least one of them because of how i handled "my dilemma" Talk about twists of fate huh?



14 years and a few relationships later, I chanced upon the one "I did not choose" in cyberspace. Actually, i looked for her relentlessly until I finally located her. We started chatting and communicating. Then I made another decision... I apologized for the offense I made. I groped for words big time! I didn't know where to start or how but somehow I mustered the courage to lay my cards and present them to her. Until now she says she hasn't forgiven me for the incident. Nevertheless I invited her to come over our house to celebrate my birthday. I was really surprised she said yes. Wow! We spent the whole day chatting in person this time at catching on our life stories after college. We went out for coffee after dinner and chatted a little more. When we finally went our separate ways I decided to update my emails and there in cyberspace our paths crossed again... knowingly or not, consciously or not, it didn't matter. What mattered was we were still talking, chatting and as the exchange of info went on... I once again ended up with a decision. This time I know what I want. I'm fickle-minded no more..